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bad day. i'll get over it. noah talked to me today. :)
but who am i kidding, it'll never happen.
fuck. now i'm sad again.
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[16 May 2005|07:35pm] |
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today was stupid. i hate hate hate mondays. real bad, too.
math - took a quiz. forgot gcf, probably failed. great.
language - acted out the diary of anne frank all period.
social studies - mr. collins is on his period, ladies and gentlemen. he spazzed out and gave 1/2 8th grade lunch detention. i ,for one, did not partake in lunch detention because i did my homework like a good girl :).
latin - mrs. larson didn't bother me today. surprisingly. listened to hawthorne heights all period.
swat - did my language homework with anthony and jenn and then finished my math homework. woo hoo. lol
** ally was wearing a nirvana shirt and it pissed loads of people off. tehe **
went over rachel's after school and studied and stuff. yay.
now i'm on the phone with john stever. i love this boy. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
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[15 May 2005|07:14pm] |
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i like him.
i like him a lot.
and supposedly he likes me, too.
maybe this will work out.
probably not.
my love life is about the suckiest one around.
but this could be different you never know.
he is different.
he is. . .him <3
::ahhhhh:: <3333333
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[15 May 2005|11:32am] |
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ok. something is wrong with me. usually i am independent and myself, but lately im not. lately i'm believing rumors i'm hearing instead of going and asking the person first. i'm negative in every possible way, and i flip out on my friends for no reason. i didn't exactly realize this until last night i flipped out on lizzie, my fucking best friend ever, and she sat there and took it. no one should take my fucking bullshit. so, im sorry to anyone i've ever hurt in the past month. i can think of a few...caitee, kya, lizzie, and anyone else i'm sorry. so i was thinking and i figured out why im being like this. it's because things at home are going downhill again. i've been getting the negative comments from my parents left and right, and getting too upset about what they say. my therapist in 6th grade told me that i shouldn't listen to them, but i do. i wish i could stop. luckily, i've been clean and haven't been doing that stupid stuff to myself, because when i think about it, i see my friends telling me not to. so i don't. today is my ex boyfriends birthday. i'm fighting night and day to not think of him, and so far it's been working okay. but today, i just broke down and let it all out. jeff, happy birthday. im sorry for being such a fucking bad girlfriend. i love you, and i want you to know that. okay? i love you. i came out and said it. i'm sorry that i do, but it's just the way it is. i've been single for 6 months and everyday i'm single he comes back into my mind. no other guy has ever treated me that nicely. last night i was sitting in the living roo, watching tv, and my mom was like "you still love jeff, don't you?" funny thing is, she's right. and i hate that. okay, i'm done rambling. bye.
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[13 May 2005|08:25pm] |
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lo11ypopGestapo: once apon a time there was a mighty mighty hairclip...it lived in a plastic wrapper in a giant city full of strange creatures.....it could see s slim section of hte outside world where there were creatures with bristles and boxes labeled " lasting color" ....she wondered what life was like outside the plastic wrapper...until one day she sees a pink pbject...it grabbed her and she screamed.... but it was no use...she moves...she saw things she had never seen before " cookies" and..."tampons" she wondered what these things were...she was then placed on a black belt....and slowly traveled towards a shiny box witha lazer beneath....the lazer blinded her as she got slid over it....the sent into yet another plastic bag...she was confused......until the pink object pulled her out of the big plastic bag and then out of her little personal wrapper..."omg" the hair clip screeched....she was the squeezed real tight and fastened in a wad of stringy stands of what looked like greasy string...she megan to scream..she was being eaten alive by tiny little bugs...she was on leah hargones' head and the lice were attacking" the end the end
ok. i totally like this boy. <33333
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[09 May 2005|07:58pm] |
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today was definitely a bad day.
math - learned a new lesson
language - holocaust stuff. ehhg..not again!
social studies - pop quiz + lewis and clark = bored jamie.
gym - ran a 4. played flag football, scored a td. only girl, holla! lol.
swat - did my homework with lad #1, russboy <33.
track meet. . .sucked like a mother. no life. lol.
now i'm here, broken-hearted, and alone. poo =[
♥</u>
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[07 May 2005|11:36pm] |
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supersteve407: i just got outta the shower
LYK30MGiTZJAM13: i <3 clean boys.
LYK30MGiTZJAM13: with long brown hair and tight pants.
LYK30MGiTZJAM13: oh man.
LYK30MGiTZJAM13: ::has orgasm::
supersteve407: sweet
supersteve407: i got 5 pairs of tight pants
supersteve407: and i have like 10 pants total
LYK30MGiTZJAM13: OMG.
LYK30MGiTZJAM13: HAVE MY BABIES.
LYK30MGiTZJAM13: NOW
LYK30MGiTZJAM13: RIGHT NOW.
supersteve407: if i had a vagina, i'd prolly lick it
supersteve407: in other words
LYK30MGiTZJAM13: oh man you must be writing your life story about having a vagina
supersteve407: if i had a female reproductive system i'd let your babies grow and nourish inside of my womb
LYK30MGiTZJAM13: oh fuck. i meant.....LET ME HAVE YOUR BABIES*
supersteve407: i can write 2 books bigger than all steven kings books put together about what i would do if i had a vagina
LYK30MGiTZJAM13: haha
JESUS CHRIST I LOVE STEPHEN ANTHONEY LINCOLN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
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[07 May 2005|12:48pm] |
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today i am hanging out all by myself. last night i went to the mall with lizzie and met up with taylor, kelsey, sara, and haylee. it was fun. farr and bryan white were there too. wooop. i didnt buy anything because i had no money.
i came home and jeremy called. errrrrr. lol he's like "you better be single in 2 months, because i'm bringing you back to georgia with me. god damnit i love you." ex-boyfriends from down south need a life. ERRR. k, i'm done.
today i get to do nothing...seriously. mom and dad are at the beach and steph is at track. before, she took me to manhatten bagel and places to get mother's day presents. yeah she can't legally drive yet, but we didn't get pulled over, so it's all good. lol.
well, i'm going to go run around my house naked. bye ♥
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[05 May 2005|05:14pm] |
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today was okay. can't wait till this weekend tho! parents are goin to the beach and the house is mine. wooop. lizzie is spending the whole weekend here, suh-weeeeeeet. hahahaha.
math - learned a new lesson.
language - wrote a 7 page story about vickee.
social studies - got test back: 82. i thought i did better, oh well. hmm anywho, watched a racist movie. rich: "mr. collins, i have a question but i think its racist"
mr. collins: "then dont say it"
rich: "uhm anyways..why is it like those people with the towel things on their head are taking over the gas stations?"
::silence except for the immature boys laughing::
mr. collins pretty much flipped a shit on him. stupid racist bitch (rich)
gym: ran a 6 with mary-kate and lauren. then we played california dodgeball. oh what joy.
swat: did all of my math homework.
no noah today =[. oh poo. anyways, walked home, cleaned dad's windows, helped parents, did homework and now im here.
..actually now im leaving ♥
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[04 May 2005|06:32pm] |
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oh man. oh man. he totally talked to me today!!!!!!! omfg. he is sooo fuckin' hott! he came over and was like "hey" and i was like "hi"
"whatcha been up to?"
"nothing really, you?"
"same"
"cool"
::awkward silence for a couple of seconds::
me: "so hows high school?"
"boring"
"i bet its better than this hellhole"
"yeah probably..do you have any of the bitch teachers?"
"bitch teachers?"
"yeah..mrs. lineberry...blah blah blah"
"uhh no i have mrs. watkinson, mrs. vedral, and mr. collins"
"ooh..thats cool"
me: "yeah i guess, i cant wait till high school"
::grunts:: "mm yeah"
::more awkward silence::
me: so how is your band?
"we suck"
"ooooh"
"yeah, but i bet we're better than some other bands i've heard"
"probably"
"yeah, we're gonna play at trinity sometime this summer, you should really go."
me: ::face lights up into smile:: "ok"
HIM: well, my dad is here, i'll see you tomorrow.
AHHHHH he made my really bad day a whole lot better
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
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hey guys! i didn't bomb the math test. WOOOP. i gotta 76. hahaha. lol, anywho. . i had a really bizarre dream about john stever and we had sex :O! omg. ew. lol, he's like. . . my fucking brother (the one i never had of course)
hello my name is jamie and i am head over heels overly obsessively in love with a jerk off =]
ta ta for now ♥
we're so nice sitting very still
♥
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[02 May 2005|08:21pm] |
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track meet in the rain = hell.
seriously. placed 4 out of 9, cant complain. with the exception that gerry and todd were ALL over me. ::shudders:: GROSSSSSSSSS.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHN STEVER, I LOVE YOOOOOU!
anywho, i bombed the math test and caitee and rachel weren't in school. definitely a bad day, and not to mention it was a fucking monday.
ERRRRG. k, im out.
I love you jeff.
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[30 Apr 2005|08:40pm] |
all you really need to know about me:
my name is jamie lee dow. im fourteen years old, my hair used to be blonde, but now its ugly dirty dish water brown. and i have blue eyes that i actually don't mind bragging about once in a while. i also have ugly fucked up teeth, the will probably never get fixed. i have some true friends and several of them have tried to kill themselves. i've only loved one boy in my life. well, love, not loved. i still do, fact is. love. its scary and i hate it but its so addictive and im trying to find someone who can give it to me like him. i really like kissing because for a moment, i feel important in that persons life. im scared of horses, clowns, heights, thunderstorms, gangs, and getting brutally rape. oh yeah, and being alone....forever. i dont like my body, except my ass and boobs, probably because boys like it and boys are addictive. there are no days in my life where i've ever felt in love with myself. alot of the time i dont see what boys see in me, but when they say im hott, i just smile and say "thanks" instead of going into the whole 'let me feel sorry for myself and make you tell me 39483857348 times that i'm pretty' lecture. i also have a tendency to be really mean to this boy, tyler eberhardt, who is obsessed with me and im tired of hearing the N word, because thanks to lizzie, i know the real meaning and take it offensively now, too. i love to laugh, and i love making people laugh (which i do easily..it just comes with being me ) im probably one of the most emo jersey girls you'll ever meet, and i cant write poetry for shit.god blows more than big dicks, he blows....ginormous anal cavities, and i think im going to die by getting run over by a train. i dont like hanging out with ally because she cuts when im with her, and cutters are losers. i HATE the beach and that is the only time im a hundred percent miserable. sandy, wet, and surrounded by drunken rednecks (and my ex boyfriend, too) = pure HELL! at caitee's house i liked zach a lot, until he humped me. then zach turned into an assholeeeee. im a drama magnet.i start to sing, then stop, realizing i sound like a moaning cat. i don't work hard in school because school, it naturally comes to me as long as i do my homework...half the time in classes im thinking about jeff, or counting down the minutes till class is over. i am NOT over jeff, and i probably never will be. i was just still stuck in the lost hope we'd go back out but hes a man whore and who wants that kind of guy for a boyfriend. pot heads = whores. im a sucker for red jolly ranchers and diet coke. i love getting presents and i also like conecerts, going to them. and to me one of the greatest feelings is talking to an old lost friend on the phone. so my name is jamie lee dow. im 14 years old and , thanks to a day of hell, i finally figured out who i am.
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today was spectacular!
-woke up at 8:30
-came online
-took a shower
-back on internet
-to the bank
-got ready
-caitee picked me up at 12ish
-went to 6 flags
-peed my pants on the stunt thing because the thing was in my bladder and i had to pee
-got soaked from head to toe
-saw jeff with a girl. kissing.
-held in the tears.
-went to the bfs concert
-i told cait to throw a tampon up there, so she did and chris goes "look, i think we got a candy bar!" and jarrett goes "oh thats no candy bar, thats a....TAMPON" hahahhaa
BFS = LOVE ♥
came home. here i am.
i like someone..pretting much to get my mind away from jeff, and because he is good-looking and has an awesome taste in music. he thinks im good-looking, too. gosh gosh, i'm getting upset. bye.
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[29 Apr 2005|11:26pm] |
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too busy to update lately.
aakash and i are only gonna be friends.
jeff is the biggest fucking dick in the world.
i officially hate midget troll dykes.
six flags is tomorrow with caitee.
i like someone from high school.
someone shoot me.
</3
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[23 Apr 2005|10:01am] |
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sorry i haven't updated lately (to the few people that care), but uh my computer broke and it sucks like a mother. anywho, last night was the school dance and i guess it was pretty fun. aakash asked me to go with him "as losers" because he has a girlfriend, but he likes me. yeah, i like him too. so i said yeah. so after school lizzie and i came back here, got some of my stuff together, and got a ride back to her house. we got ready (hair, make-up, clothes) and then we camera whorred. lol, yep! so her dad took us there around 7:30 and we spotted aakash and he came over to me and was like "hey" and i was cold so i was like "hiii ::shivering::" and then he gave me his jacket =]. so we got let inside and lizzie and i were just dancing around like lunatics, and making fun of all the slutty wannabe ghetto girls..haha. then a slow dance came on and aakash was nowhere to be found. so i slowdanced with lizzie, till i spotted aakash slowdancing with lexi (the girl he called annoying two days ago when we were hanging out.....ALONE) but anywho, i let that slide. so people were throwing a fit that his arm was around me and stuff, so we made this "aakash can't touch jamie rule" so we started "grinding" but we were....like a foot away from each other. haha. it was really funny. lizzie got upset about farr, so i went and cheered her up, and then a slowdance came on. aakash was out getting a drink. so i found that kid that was obsessed with me in 6 and 7 grade, ryan buxton, and danced with him. that must've made his night, lol. so then aakash came back in and we started "grinding" again until another slow song came on. he asked me to dance so we did, and he even watched his hands! lol. sooo then the dj was like "this is the last song of the dance" and another slow song came on. so aakash and i danced again, haha. except this time his hands were all over my ass, but what can i say, i liked it. =] so then the song was almost over, and he bent over and whispered "i cant beleive i have to leave all of this" in my ear, and that was that. he hugged me goodbye and i came home.
sounds fun, huh? eeehhh kinda.
♥
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today i handed out "bigley/endo" flyers with lizzie. lol. i walked to and from her house. im sore and have sunburn. then we hung out by the creek.
i'm so fucking in love with him, still ♥
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[16 Apr 2005|06:50pm] |
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i'm getting sick of updating when i have like 3 friends and no one comments. but whatev. this past week has been a good one.
1. got a haircut
2. got a new car
3. got a new computer
...i can't complain. just comment, please.
♥
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[15 Apr 2005|06:38pm] |
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guess whose over! fetus friend! yay. lol. today was extraordinarily fun. school was gay as usual, but after school lizzie and i walked home. somehow parker yet again saw us and followed us like a little lost puppy. haha. so we walked to fantastic sam's to get my hurr did. weerrd. the weird ass lady cut my hair and fucked it up. oh well. hmmmmm, so after that we went to the creek and rich showed up somewhere along the way. so we were all hanging out. boo. we made them leave. yay. so lizzie and i went to the creek by ourselves and tried to catch fish. LMFAO...with our hands. hahaha. we're so retarded. anywho, there was mud that smelled worse than rascal's ass. hahahaha. lizzie's sleeping over, so i'm going to go rape her. bye.
<333
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yesterday the internet was being a straight up whore. so i'm going to tell you what i did yesterday in more detail.
after school lizzie and caitee came home with me. my mom picked us up and took us to burger king. the guy there was our hero (he was homeless.) lizzie stole me the "i ♥ my remax realtor" sign i wanted, and we like ran back to my house. haha. uhhm we came back and dressed up. caitee = skank, jamie = raver, lizzie = emo gangsta. haha we were sooo effin' hyper, it was great you should've seen us. we made up a dance routine to hellogoodbye's "shimmy shimmy quarter turn" hahahahahaha. i heart that song more than ever. then they both left. lizzie got real sad so i made my mom take me over there. we hung out for a bit, and her dad brought me home.
today, school was tiring. lol and i didn't even do work. today was career day and random people came in to talk to us about our careers (((blehhhhhhh)) boooorrring. i fell asleep during the firefighters..oops. lol. so then i had track practice and that went pretty well. well, im off to go find lizzie on princeton pike. byeeeee.
♥ i love you
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